Nights like tonight remind me of all the horrible things I’ve been through. I have been abused, cheated on, beaten, used, lied to, alone, abandoned, and many other things. I have cut myself many times before, I have contemplated suicide but never went through with it obviously. I have tried to run away and I have given up on myself and dreams. I am a lot stronger now, I no longer self harm, or plan out suicide. I look forward to some things, but I’m still hurting badly. I still feel alone a lot and sad. But I’m still trying and I guess that’s all that matters..